• 4th October 1820

    During dinner, marrying happening to be mentioned, I declared my determination against it & Mr Duffin understood. “I fear it,” said he, “& more the shame.” “Shame,” said I. “I see no shame in consulting your own happiness” & the subject was soon ended. Both Mr Duffin & Miss Marsh would evidently have had it otherwise But I care not & they must see their efforts are in vain.

About Anne Lister

Anne Lister (1791–1840), now known as ‘the first modern lesbian,’ was a wealthy, independent landowner from Shibden Hall in Halifax, West Yorkshire.

Anne kept several volumes of detailed diaries, totalling more than four million words, from the age of fifteen, when she fell in love with her fellow pupil Eliza Raine at the Manor School in York–until her untimely death from an insect sting, at age forty-nine, while travelling in Russia.

One sixth of Anne’s diaries are written in a code, devised by herself, based on a combination of algebra and the Greek alphabet, to which Anne referred as her ‘crypthand.’ She was convinced that no-one would ever be able to decode it. She was wrong. When the diaries were discovered a few decades ago by a member of the Lister family, who broke the code, Anne’s lesbian sexuality was discovered … and quickly buried. John Lister, the relative in question, was gay himself, and did not want to draw attention to his own sexuality by revealing his discovery of the diaries.

The encoded portions of Anne’s diaries document her passionate love affairs with other women. Anne was strikingly free and easy about her sexuality and her numerous romantic encounters. Dressing always in black, without any feminine frills, she was the nineteenth century equivalent of a butch lesbian, and known to the locals as ‘Gentleman Jack.’ She openly courted young women–many of whom seemed most willing to fall under her spell.